This is a short fictional yet some true events related story do consider reading it once!
Writer: Aashi Sharma
“बदलाव तो तब आते हैं जब हमारे कदम वैसे कर्मपथ पर चलने की शुरुआत करें।” Meaning: Changes are witnessed when our footsteps begin their journey to work for the changes.
Hello ladies and ladies! My name is Aashi Sharma and you are about to read my story(fictional)! Don’t worry I won’t give a chance where you feel bored…
So the story begins when I was in class 4. In our school we had a rule that we had to share the benches (benches like: https://pin.it/3kiB1TJ) with an opposite gender only because surprisingly, our class became the only class in our school (the senior most class was 10th standard) where girl:boy ratio was 1:1! By such a scenario, our headmistress decided to implement co-ed fully! So, one fine day I was made to sit next to a girl named Vanshi. A tomboy girl in the eyes of the rest of the students but for me she was an inspiration. She never wore a mask to impress people. Instead she used to be herself! She had short hair, shorter than mine (something like: https://pin.it/3OfWTzt). This made me feel a bit different, umm awkward also…
That day we had our first official interaction. She was great at interaction if the other person is genuinely interested. We talked whole day throughout the classes only to realise that we have matching vibes. We used to be with each other all day and just talked as if we knew each other since ages. I had no real friend until Vanshi came. So it was exciting for me as well. One day out of the blue, she brought up the idea of swapping school shoes for a while. I was shocked! Because at that time both boys and girls had different shoes (for girls: https://pin.it/6PMyxyJ and for boys: https://pin.it/6BuFPia). After staring at each other for a moment, she became a bit dominant and said: “ Arey baba wear it no you won’t become a girl by wearing mere shoes! And however shoes don’t have a gender… remove them in a while if you feel uncomfortable!” I hesitatingly said, ” But what if our classmates see me wearing these? They will bully me always for it!” She replied, “ They don’t even care and however we are on the last seat, no one will see chill!” I still uttered, “ B.. Bu.. But…” She angrily said, “I didn’t know you are such a loser! Wear it I say!!” I felt weak and thought we might loose our special bond if I don’t wear her shoes… so I wore them and as soon as I buckled them up, they god damn suited my legs!! I was surprised as well! Nearly 10litres of dopamine was released as I wore here shoes! They felt heavenly!! I closed my eyes to feel them more. She could spot the happiness on my face and was smiling constantly. After I opened my eyes, I looked at her and didn’t say a word trying to keep my face as neutral as possible. I found her smiling constantly and hence was about to ask, “wh..why.. are you….” Before I could complete my sentence, she hugged me tight and quickly kissed my cheek… I was blushing wayyy tooo much! I looked away to break the eye contact. She said “ Oho!! Dekho to sahi… meri pyaari Aashi sharma gayi…!” I couldn’t stop my smile and was blushing even harder but I controlled myself. She turned me towards herself softly by my chin and said, “This is who you are! Accept the change.” I asked, “What do you mean!?” She replied, “nothing, you can remove them now…” I removed her shoes but was wondering what she meant. For about the next whole year she used to make me try various girly things as if she had found a girlfriend in me… After a short vacation, her height grew suddenly and I was still the same. When our school reopened, she came up to me and asked whether I would wear her shirts from now on or not because her sizes have increased and we almost had the same shirts for boys and girls so I said no issues! I replaced my shirts with her’s so that my mom has no doubt. But when I smelled them, they had a fragrance! That permanent fragrance that girls have! It felt as if a girl had hugged me so tight that she had almost entered me… I loved the fact that even after so many washes, that fragrance remained! The day I wore them to school, she immediately recognised her shirt! I asked, “How could you recognise so quickly!?” She replied, “My darling don’t forget you are wearing a shirt which I wore for a couple of years and which girls of our school have been wearing for years! It is very easy for me to recognise, you won’t understand, chill!” I felt a bit weaker now because it felt humiliating to know that I am wearing girls uniform! But at the same time I was enjoying the feel of it. I brushed all my thoughts away and kept going!
We used to hangout a bit differently now and I don’t know how… We exchanged a lot of things but none of it ever made me realise that it was meant for the other gender, it felt as if feminine life was welcoming me with open arms.
Years passed and I was becoming more and more weak yet more and more girly. My family felt that there was no difference because the changes were very subtle and silent. When we were in class 10, Vanshi and I almost had the same height, the hair length still had the same difference, she was a bit stronger now I don’t know how. After 10th, it was time for Vanshi to leave. She was moving to a bigger city for classes 11th and 12th and I was about to stay in our hometown only for the same.
It was the time to say goodbye to each other on the final day of our examinations. We shook hands, hugged each other and she gave me a sweet kiss on my cheeks. She said, “ Never suppress change in order to make others happy, let the change come and be happier than ever!” Tears formed in my eyes as she turned around and took some steps towards the exit. She stopped at the edge of the exit for a while and turned towards me. She came towards me slowly and asked, “ Do you remember that day in class 4 when you wore my shoes for the first time..?” I replied nodding. She continued, “That day when I told you that this is who you are, what I meant was, you have a girly heart, you are a girl eternally and accept it wholeheartedly, god has blessed you with this identity…. Bbye, stay in touch beauty!” She turned and moved out wiping her tears and I broke down completely as if someone had shown me my entire life in just a moment!
Coming to the current time,
Vanshi and I lost contact 4 years ago as she left for higher studies in the UK. I had completed my studies, grew long hairs and maintained a gorgeous feminine figure. But unfortunately lost my father a couple of years ago. Due to such circumstances, my mom needed a shoulder where she could convey her feelings. I was already a woman but my parents didn’t know. So one day I decided to talk to mom becoming Aashi and revealing what I was internally.
I went up to her in a beautiful saree, nicely braided hair, bangles, beautiful sounding anklets, bindi, necklace and gorgeous nails. I stood by my mom’s bedroom door and said, “ Mom, I am sorry to hide about my true identity, I am a girl from within and I wish to be a girl forever now.” I moved closer and sat beside her on the bed. My mom got very very emotional and broke down hugging me tight. She said, “Why didn’t you tell us about this earlier!? You can be whatever you want to be beta! I love you that is a fact and don’t care about the society. Just be yourself!” We both cried heavily and I was happy that my mom accepted a daughter in me. I started living as a woman full time and was enjoying the life I had. I was working in a transgender trust from where I could earn for our home.
A few months ago, I got an instagram DM from an account where the username was, “richguyl” it stated, “Heyy Aashi! I know we have been away for long but I am back! Let’s meet!” Firstly I ignored but then I saw that in one of his posts, she had posted a click from a mega seminar where the name was written Vanshi Singh which immediately made me realise it was her!
I asked few questions just to confirm and surprisingly she answered them right! So we finalised a catch up date.
We decided to meet at a beautiful yet not so crowded café.
I wore a gorgeous one piece gown (exactly this one: https://pin.it/3Jrg6bg) and did some makeup. Just to try something new, I wore a stunning choker (https://pin.it/5Lfzybj). I reached the café only to find that Vanshi was waiting for me on a specially decorated table. She was looking exactly the way she loves to look (something like: https://pin.it/I7bPdyA). I couldn’t control my happiness and hugged her tight, very tight. We kissed each other on the cheeks and complimented each other for all that we have done over the years!
We chatted for hours and hours and at around the midnight, she went on her knees and proposed me!!! I was astonished to see her doing this…
Today our relationship is completing 6 months! And we are getting engaged in a fortnight!!!!
I love you Vanshi
Thank you for everything!
Love,
Aashi
Mail me your thoughts on: aashiquisharma@yahoo.com