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Writer's picturePriyanka Sharma

Becoming a Mother


"No, I don't think it's a good idea," the man on the phone said, his voice echoing through the quiet office.

"But it's just for a couple of months," I responded, trying to keep the desperation from my tone.

"Look, I need you here. We're swamped with projects," he retorted, his voice firm and final.

My heart sank as I nodded, even though he couldn't see it. Moving to Chennai had been a dream of mine since I first heard the vibrant tales of the city's bustling streets and warm, welcoming culture. But here I was, stuck in the confines of a grey cubicle, surrounded by the stagnant air of corporate indifference.

Finally, the call ended and I slumped back in my chair. The walls of the office seemed to close in around me, the fluorescent lights flickering a sad tune of disappointment. I sighed, running a hand through my hair, feeling the fabric of my shirt stick to my skin. The air conditioning had decided to take a break, and the heat of the day clung to me like a clingy ex.

As the workday dragged on, I couldn't shake the feeling of longing. The thought of the colorful saris, the scent of jasmine in the air, and the sound of the ocean waves crashing against the shore played in my mind like a persistent melody. It was a stark contrast to the lifeless office decor and the monotonous tapping of keyboards that had become my symphony.

The clock finally ticked its way to closing time, and I packed my things with a mix of relief and dread. Relief to escape the stifling environment, but dread for the lonely evening ahead in my one-bedroom apartment.

On the drive home, I decided to take the scenic route along the ECR, letting the wind from the sea wash over me as I cruised with the windows down. The sun had begun its descent, painting the sky with shades of pink and orange. It was as if it knew I needed a little cheer, a little warmth in my soul.

The road was relatively empty, save for a few couples on bikes and the occasional rickshaw zooming by. I pulled over at a quiet spot and took in the view of the horizon, the water stretching out like an invitation to a life unexplored.

It was then, in the quiet solitude of the seaside, that I made a decision. I would no longer wait for someone else to give me the life I wanted. I would take it for myself. Starting tonight.

With a newfound sense of purpose, I headed home, my heart racing with excitement. The apartment complex looked the same as it always did, but tonight it felt like a canvas waiting to be painted with the colors of my true self.

Once inside my apartment, I kicked off my shoes and headed straight for the bathroom. I needed to transform, not just physically, but emotionally. I had been hiding parts of myself for so long—my true self—buried under layers of self-doubt and shame. Tonight, I would shed those layers.

I stood in front of the mirror and studied my face, taking in the woman staring back at me. My hair, short and unkempt, framed my face like a reminder of the struggles I'd faced. I smiled at the reflection, determined to embrace what I saw. The woman in the mirror was me, and she deserved to be seen.

I reached for my makeup bag, which I had left untouched for weeks. With careful hands, I began applying foundation, smoothing the soft, creamy texture over my skin. The brush glided smoothly, covering the faint marks of my past and leaving behind a blank canvas. I added a soft pink blush to my cheeks, highlighting the high points of my face.

The eyeshadow was next—earthy tones of gold and brown, the kind that would blend well with the warm hues of the city’s sunset. I carefully applied eyeliner, drawing a smooth line along my upper lash line. My hands were steady, despite the excitement rushing through me. It was as though this small ritual of makeup was more than just about looking good—it was about preparing my soul for what was to come.

After applying mascara, I moved to the next step: my wig. The silky strands, a deep chestnut brown, were neatly folded in a bag, waiting for their moment. I gently placed it on my head, securing it in place with bobby pins. The weight of the wig felt comforting, like a shield, and I adjusted it carefully, making sure it framed my face perfectly. The smoothness of the synthetic hair was a stark contrast to my own natural locks, but I loved the way it looked.

I smiled at my reflection once more. The woman staring back at me felt more whole than she ever had before. I was ready.

I changed into a stunning red salwar kameez that hugged my curves in all the right places. The fabric shimmered slightly in the dim light of my apartment, the soft cotton hugging my form in a way that felt empowering. The matching dupatta was draped over my shoulder like a work of art. I twirled in front of the mirror, watching how the fabric flowed around me.

The mirror reflected a woman I had kept hidden for too long. For the first time in a long time, I allowed myself to see her—to love her. My eyes sparkled as I added a light touch of lipstick—just a hint of red to match the vibrancy of the outfit. I was a vision, and I wasn’t going to hide that anymore.

With a final look, I stepped out into the warm Chennai evening, ready to face whatever lay ahead.

The beach was just a short walk away, and I felt the sand between my toes as I approached the shoreline. The waves rolled in, whispering secrets from the vast ocean. The setting sun painted the sky with fiery strokes, casting a warm glow that danced on the waves. The air was alive with the laughter of families and the tantalizing aroma of street food.


I bought a plate of pani puri from a vendor, the sizzling spices mingling with the saltwater breeze. As I ate, I watched the children playing by the water, their laughter echoing in the air, carefree and full of joy. The sight tugged at my heart, reminding me of my own childhood, the simplicity of a time before responsibilities weighed me down.

There was something so pure about their innocence, and it made me yearn for the connection I had always longed for—children of my own, or at least a family I could be part of. The thought made my heart swell. I smiled at the children, noticing the way their parents watched over them with such love and pride.

The warmth in my chest grew stronger. I knew my journey to embrace myself was just the beginning, but this city, with its complex mix of traditions and modernity, its people with hearts full of generosity, was the place where I could finally let my heart be open.

The beach grew quieter as the sun disappeared, leaving a canvas of stars above. I sat on the sand, the gentle lull of the waves soothing my restless thoughts. The quiet was broken by the sound of footsteps approaching. I turned to see a group of young men, their eyes lingering on me with a mix of curiosity and something more predatory. I took a deep breath, steeling myself, but they merely exchanged glances and moved on, their whispers trailing behind them.

I stood up, brushing off the sand, and made my way back to my apartment.

The lights of Chennai twinkled like diamonds scattered across velvet as I walked, each step taking me closer to my haven. The quietness of the night was a stark contrast to the chaotic day, and the cool breeze caressed my skin, carrying with it the promise of freedom.

Once inside, I kicked off my sandals and danced barefoot across the cool tiles, feeling the soft fabric of my salwar flutter around my legs. I had never felt so alive, so in tune with the woman I truly was.

The silence of the apartment was broken only by the distant hum of the city. I turned on some Bollywood music, the vibrant beats echoing through the empty rooms as I twirled and swayed to the rhythm. The walls that had felt so confining earlier now seemed to pulse with energy, reflecting my newfound spirit.

The next day, I woke up early, the excitement of the previous night still buzzing in my veins. I decided to explore the local markets dressed as I felt most comfortable. As I stepped outside, the sounds of the city's morning routine filled my ears: the chatter of vendors setting up their stalls, the distant honk of an impatient car, and the sweet melody of a temple bell.

I wandered through the narrow streets, my eyes feasting on the riot of colors and the rich tapestry of life. The air was thick with the scent of spices and freshly brewed tea, making my mouth water. I stopped at a street stall to buy a cup of chai, feeling the warmth of the liquid spread through me like a comforting blanket.


The vendor looked at me with a hint of curiosity but offered a smile that felt genuine. It was a small moment, but it was the first time in a long time that I felt truly seen.

As I strolled through the market, I couldn't help but notice the way people looked at me. Some stared openly, others whispered, but I held my head high. I was no longer the corporate drone, but a woman embracing her truth.


In one of the stalls, I found a beautiful necklace of jasmine flowers. The vendor, an elderly woman with a warm smile, placed it around my neck, her eyes lighting up as she admired how it complemented my look. “You wear it well,” she said, her voice soft.

It was a simple act, but it touched me deeply.

As I paid for the necklace and walked back to my apartment, I realized that it wasn’t just about the way I looked—it was about how I carried myself, the confidence that now radiated from within me. The city, with all its energy and chaos, had accepted me in a way I never expected.


The warmth of the evening sun still lingered in the air when I made my way to the nearby theater for a movie I had been waiting to watch. It was one of those small, intimate venues that offered a quieter, more personal movie-going experience. As I walked past the rows of old posters, I could hear the hum of excitement and chatter from the people inside.

But it wasn’t the movie that was on my mind tonight. It was something else—something I hadn’t anticipated.

As I entered the lobby, I was greeted by the bustling crowd—couples holding hands, families laughing, and children running around. And then, I saw him. Rohan.

He was standing near the entrance with his two children, his daughter holding his hand, while his son tugged at his sleeve, trying to get his attention. He looked so... normal. Like every other father in the crowd, but with a gentle strength in the way he interacted with his kids.

My heart skipped a beat. I had seen him a few times before—at the park, in the neighborhood, even once at the grocery store. But I had never really spoken to him. Yet, tonight, there was something about him, something about his presence that made me want to go up and introduce myself.

I hesitated for a moment, trying to steady my nerves, but before I could change my mind, his daughter looked up and caught my eye. She smiled and waved, her eyes twinkling with that innocent curiosity only children seemed to have.

"Hi!" she called out, her voice as clear as a bell. "Are you coming to watch the movie too?"

I blinked, a little surprised by her friendliness. “Uh, yes, I am," I said with a smile. "It looks like you’re excited for the movie, too."

She nodded enthusiastically. "I love these kinds of movies! But Papa says I have to be quiet so I don’t disturb anyone." She glanced at Rohan with an almost mischievous grin, as if she had a secret to tell me. "But I can’t wait to see the monsters!"

Rohan, who had been watching the exchange from a distance, smiled warmly and walked over. "I hope the monsters don’t keep you up all night," he said, his voice rich with humor.

I chuckled, finding the moment endearing. "I’m sure they’ll behave themselves for you."

“Are you going to sit with us?” His daughter, who had already taken a liking to me, looked up at me expectantly.

My gaze flicked between her and Rohan, and before I could decline politely, Rohan spoke up.

“Actually, we have an extra seat. It’d be nice if you joined us. It’ll be fun, and I’m sure she’d love the company.”

I was taken aback by the offer, but there was something warm and inviting in his tone. His children were so open, so carefree. It felt like the kind of invitation that couldn’t be turned down.

“Alright, why not?” I said, feeling my heart swell with an unfamiliar sense of comfort.

As we made our way into the theater, I settled into the seat beside Rohan and his children. His son, a little older than his sister, immediately started talking to me about the movie. His enthusiasm was contagious, and I found myself laughing along with him.

The movie began, and I could hear the soft whispers of the kids as they excitedly predicted what would happen next. But it wasn’t just the kids that made the night memorable—it was Rohan. Every so often, he would glance over at me, as if checking in, his gaze kind and thoughtful.

During a particularly tense moment in the film, Rohan's daughter, who had been sitting between us, suddenly grabbed my hand. "Mom," she said in a soft, innocent voice.

I froze. The word hung in the air for a moment, surprising me. It was a word I had never expected to hear from her, especially not so soon.

Rohan looked at me, a smile tugging at his lips. His eyes were full of warmth and understanding, as though the simple word had stirred something deep within him as well. "It’s okay," he said, gently squeezing my hand. "She’s just not used to meeting new people. But if she calls you ‘Mom,’ it’s a good thing. Means she feels comfortable."

I felt my heart swell at the unexpected intimacy of the moment. It felt like a small, beautiful step forward. Like a signal that maybe, just maybe, I was starting to find my place here—within this family, within this life I was building for myself.

As the movie continued, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of contentment. It was a feeling I hadn’t known for a long time. I was here, with them—Rohan, his kids, and this sense of belonging I had longed for.

The movie ended, and we all stood up to leave. Rohan’s daughter, still holding my hand, looked up at me with a serious expression.

"Can you be my mom?" she asked, her voice soft but hopeful.

My heart skipped again. There was a raw honesty in her words that struck me deeply. It was as if she had already accepted me, without question, without hesitation.

Before I could respond, Rohan placed a hand on my shoulder, his voice quiet but sincere. "I think," he began, "we’ve both been searching for something—something real, something we can trust." He paused, meeting my gaze. "Maybe it’s time to start that journey. Together."

I stared at him for a long moment, the weight of his words sinking in. And then, without thinking, I nodded. "Yes," I whispered, my voice full of emotion. "I think it’s time."

And just like that, everything changed. The room seemed to fade away, leaving only the three of us—the beginning of something beautiful, something new.

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