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Writer's picturePriyanka Sharma

Becoming who you truly are


"What are you staring at, you little rascal?" the woman's voice was sharp, piercing the quiet of the afternoon.


I jolted back from the window, heart racing. The curtains fluttered, giving me away. I had been caught, my eyes greedily taking in every detail of Aunt Radha's morning ritual. The way she wrapped the six yards of elegance around her curvaceous figure, the precision of her movements, and the way the fabric hugged her body, creating a masterpiece of grace.


My cheeks flushed, and I mumbled an apology, my eyes fixed on the ground. "Auntie, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to—"


"Look at me when you're speaking," she interrupted, her tone softer now. I obeyed, raising my gaze to meet hers. Her eyes were no longer filled with anger, but a curious spark danced within them. "You know, not everyone can wear a sari like this," she said, her hands gesturing to the floor-length garment she had just finished draping. "It's an art."


My eyes widened with hope. "Could you teach me, Auntie?" I asked, the words slipping out before I could stop them. The desire had been burning within me for so long, and here was my chance to learn the secrets of the beautiful world of women's clothing that had always felt so out of reach.


Aunt Radha studied me for a moment, her expression unreadable. Then she took a deep breath and opened her door. "Come in," she said, stepping aside to reveal the warm, spicy scent of her home. "But remember, there's always a price to pay for one's curiosity."


Her living room was a treasure trove of fabrics and colors. The walls were adorned with various saris, each one more mesmerizing than the last. She led me to a chair in the center of the room, where the soft light from the windows fell just right, illuminating a light blue sari with a silver border. My heart fluttered at the sight of it.


"This," she said, her voice almost a whisper, "is your first lesson." She handed me the sari, along with a sleeveless blouse, a petticoat, and a set of matching undergarments. "Dress up, and I'll watch."


With trembling hands, I began the transformation. The fabric was cool and smooth against my skin, and the lightness of it made me feel as if I was floating. The blouse was snug and the petticoat rustled as I put it on, reminding me of the way Aunt Radha's had sounded when she walked. I felt a strange mix of excitement and fear as I started to drape the sari. Each fold and tuck felt like a secret I was uncovering.


Finally, I looked up to meet her gaze. She was watching me intently, her eyes no longer harsh but filled with an emotion I couldn't quite pinpoint. "Well?" I whispered, my voice shaking.


"You've done well," she said, a smile playing on her lips. "But remember, once you start down this path, there's no turning back." With those cryptic words, she turned away to grab something from the next room, leaving me to wonder what she truly meant.


When she returned, she was holding a box of makeup and a set of bangles that jingled like the chime of distant bells. "Now, let's make you look like a proper lady," she said, her voice taking on a gentle, almost motherly tone. She applied kajal to my eyes, painting a thin line along the upper lid that made them look bigger and more mysterious than ever before. Then she painted my lips with a soft pink color that matched my cheeks, which were already flushed with excitement and nerves.


The next three days were a whirlwind of learning and self-discovery. Aunt Radha taught me not just how to drape a sari, but how to carry myself with poise and grace. She showed me how to apply makeup, how to accessorize, and even how to walk and talk in a way that felt more feminine than ever. With each step I took in her heels, the floor beneath me seemed to melt away, and I was no longer a curious boy, but a blossoming young woman eager to embrace the world around me.


But there was more to this transformation than just the clothes and makeup. Aunt Radha had a way of making me feel seen, understood, and accepted in a way that no one else ever had. She shared stories of her own life, her struggles, and her triumphs. Her strength and resilience became my own, seeping into me with every word she spoke. And when she looked at me, her eyes no longer held anger or disgust, but a warmth that made my heart swell.


On the second day, she introduced me to her circle of friends, all of whom were equally enamored with my transformation. They showered me with compliments and gifts, welcoming me into their fold without a second thought. For the first time in my life, I felt truly alive, as if I had been born into the wrong body and had finally found my true self.


But all good things must come to an end, and as the third day dawned, the reality of my situation began to sink in. My family would return soon, and with them, the expectation to be the boy they knew. I approached Aunt Radha with trepidation, my voice shaking as I asked what would happen when they returned.


"Don't worry," she assured me, her hand resting comfortingly on my shoulder. "I have a surprise for you." With a knowing smile, she led me back to the mirror and whispered the incantation that had changed me before. This time, however, she added something new, and as the magic took hold, I watched in amazement as my body began to shift once more, back to the form I knew so well. "Remember," she said, "you can always come back to this, if you truly wish it."


The last thing I saw before I left her house, the sari and makeup a distant memory, was Aunt Radha standing in the doorway, watching me with a look of pure contentment. In that moment, I knew that she had given me a gift more precious than any sari or necklace—the freedom to explore who I truly was without judgment. And as I walked away, my heart filled with gratitude and hope, I couldn't help but wonder what other secrets and adventures lay waiting for me in the folds of life's ever-changing fabric.


The days leading up to my family's return were a blur of anticipation and dread. How would I explain the transformation I had undergone? Would I ever feel that same sense of belonging again? Yet, as the time approached, I found myself eager to see Aunt Radha once more. I had so much to thank her for, so much to ask.


When the door finally opened, and my mother's eyes fell upon me, I braced myself for the storm of questions. But to my surprise, she took one look and simply said, "You've been helping Aunt Radha with her chores again, haven't you?" It was as if she had always known the depth of my secret fascination. I nodded, feeling a weight lift from my chest.


In the days that followed, I couldn't shake the feeling that my world had been forever changed. The way the sunlight kissed my skin, the sound of fabric rustling, even the scent of the incense that lingered in the air—everything felt more vibrant, more alive. And each time I caught a glimpse of Aunt Radha, she would give me a knowing smile, as if she could see the woman I was becoming beneath the surface of my male exterior.


One evening, as I sat in my room, I heard a gentle knock on the door. My heart pounded as I called out, "Come in." It was Aunt Radha, holding a small package wrapped in shimmering paper. "For you," she said, her eyes gleaming. "A reminder of your true self, should you ever wish to embrace it fully."


I took the package, my hands trembling with excitement. Inside lay a sari, identical to the one I had worn those three magical days—light blue with a silver border. I looked up at her, tears welling in my eyes. "Thank you," I managed to whisper. "Thank you for everything."


"You're welcome, dear," she replied, her voice a soft caress. "But remember, the choice is always yours. Whenever you're ready, come to me, and we'll make it real again." With a final smile, she turned and walked away, leaving me alone with my thoughts and the beginnings of a new journey that stretched out before me, filled with endless possibilities.


I waited until I heard the soft click of her bedroom door before I dared to unfold the sari. The fabric was as soft and delicate as I remembered, whispering against my fingertips as I held it up to the light. The silver border glinted, reminding me of the way Aunt Radha's jewelry had caught the light during our lessons. I felt a thrill of excitement and fear mingled together, a heady cocktail of emotions that made me feel alive.


The days passed, and I waited for the right moment. I practiced in secret, draping the sari over my body and watching the way it fell, memorizing every fold and tuck until it felt as natural as my own skin. I dreamt of the day when I could wear it openly, when the world would see me as I truly was.


That night finally arrived, and as I stood in front of the mirror, I took a deep breath and whispered the incantation Aunt Radha had taught me. The air around me shimmered, and I felt a strange tingling sensation as my body began to shift. The mirror revealed a beautiful young woman staring back at me, her eyes filled with wonder and a hint of fear.


I stepped out into the moonlit night, the sari billowing around me like a cloud. The cool breeze kissed my skin, and I felt free, as if I had been released from a cocoon that had been suffocating me for far too long. The streets were quiet, the only sound the rustle of my petticoat as I moved with newfound grace.


The world was a different place when seen through the eyes of a woman, and I marveled at the way the shadows danced and played across the buildings. The air was thick with the scent of jasmine and the distant laughter of children playing in the park. I felt as if I had been born anew, experiencing the world for the first time.


As the moon reached its zenith, I knew it was time to return to reality. With a heavy heart, I whispered the reversal of the incantation, feeling the fabric of the sari dissolve away. But the memory of those moments lingered, a secret smile playing on my lips as I climbed back into bed, my heart fluttering like the wings of a caged bird that had finally tasted freedom.


The next day, I couldn't help but seek out Aunt Radha, eager to share my experience with her. Her eyes lit up when she saw me, and she took my hand, leading me into her sanctuary once more. "Tell me everything," she urged, her voice a warm embrace. And so, I did, my words spilling out in a rush as I described the joy and terror of my first night as a woman.


Her smile was like the sun breaking through the clouds. "You've taken the first step," she said, her eyes glowing with pride. "Now, it's time for you to decide if you wish to walk this path fully, or if it's just a curious detour."


I knew what I wanted. The question was, could I find the courage to take that step? With Aunt Radha by my side, I felt that perhaps, just perhaps, I could.


The next week passed in a blur of stolen moments. Each night, I would transform into the woman I was meant to be, exploring the streets and learning the art of femininity. Each morning, I would return to my male body, the sari hidden away like a precious secret.


But the pull was too strong. The more I experienced life as a woman, the more I knew that it was where I truly belonged. The day my parents were to leave for another trip, I approached Aunt Radha with a trembling voice. "I want to stay with you," I said, the words tumbling out in a rush. "I want to learn more, to become who I truly am."


Her smile was warm and understanding. "I knew this day would come," she said, her eyes shining with unshed tears. "But remember, the choice is still yours. Once you make it, there's no turning back."


I took a deep breath and nodded, my heart racing with excitement and fear. "I choose to stay," I whispered. And with those words, my life as I knew it was forever changed.


Aunt Radha took me in without hesitation, guiding me through the rest of my transformation. She taught me how to move, how to speak, and how to carry myself with the grace and poise of a woman. Each day was a new lesson, a new layer added to the complex tapestry of my new identity. We spent hours practicing my walk, my posture, and the way I held my hands. She showed me the delicate art of applying makeup, the way a single stroke of kajal could make my eyes smolder, and how to drape the sari so that it accentuated my newfound curves.


Our days were filled with laughter and friendship, but there was an undeniable tension in the air as we both knew that my secret could not be kept hidden forever. My parents would return, and with them, the expectations of the life I had left behind. Yet, every night, I grew more confident in my role as a woman. I felt alive in a way I never had before, and the thrill of living a double life was intoxicating.


On the eve of my parents' return, Aunt Radha called me into her room, her eyes serious. "Tomorrow, your worlds will collide," she said. "Are you ready to face them as the woman you've become?"


I swallowed hard, nodding my head. "I am," I replied, my voice firm.


The following day, I watched the clock tick down the hours, my heart pounding in anticipation. When their car finally pulled up, I waited in the shadows, dressed in my most elegant sari, my heart racing like a wild animal trapped in a cage.


My mother's eyes widened when she saw me, and for a moment, she said nothing. Then she took a step back, a look of horror dawning on her face. "What have you done?" she shrieked. "You're not my son!"


But my father, ever the calm one, took a moment to look at me, really look at me. And then, to my astonishment, a smile began to spread across his face. "You look beautiful," he said softly. "I think we have a lot to talk about."


The conversation that followed was tense, filled with tears and accusations. But as the night grew long, they began to understand. They saw the joy and peace that had filled my eyes, the way I moved with confidence and grace. And slowly, they accepted me for who I was.


The next few months were a rollercoaster of emotions as I navigated my new life as a woman. There were challenges, of course—stares, whispers, and the occasional cruel remark. But with Aunt Radha's guidance and my parents' newfound support, I grew stronger.


And then, one day, a letter arrived. It was from a distant relative, inviting us to a family wedding. My heart leaped in excitement—my first opportunity to present myself to the world as the woman I truly was. I turned to Aunt Radha, hope shining in my eyes. "Will you come with me?" I asked.


"Of course," she said, her smile warm and reassuring. "But remember, my dear, you don't need me to validate you. You are already everything you need to be."


With those words ringing in my ears, I knew I was ready to face the world. The wedding was a whirlwind of color and sound, a kaleidoscope of saris and jewelry. And there I was, in the middle of it all, a new woman born from the ashes of my old life.


As I danced and laughed, I felt the weight of the world lift from my shoulders. I was free, accepted, and loved. And as I looked into the mirror, the reflection staring back at me was no longer a stranger. It was me, in all my glory—beautiful, confident, and unapologetically myself.


The journey ahead was still uncertain, but I knew that with every step I took in those delicate heels, I was walking towards the person I was always meant to be. And as the music swelled and the lights grew brighter, I realized that I had found my place in the world, wrapped in the warm embrace of a sari and the love of those who truly saw me.

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